School was on Monday.

YAY, It was a great feeling. Still is.
Graduating a year later but you know what ... at least im caught up and am on track.
James is still changing over night, hes 24lbs and is furniture crawling and sitting himself up.. crazy ? I know right. Hes only 6.5 months , hes a fast learner.
Me and Billy are still hanging in there. Well my pain in the butt is up  , so i should pay him some attention before he destroys the place ;)
chow for now.

No sympathy .

I have no sympathy for those people who just settle. Who allow themselves to give up, Who are not happy but instead of doing something about it, they rather just complain.
I know another teen mom, Her name is Marley. She has got to be the most lazy being on this planet.
Its disgusting. They go to concerts, don't go to school nether of them work, and of course they still party. Relying on our government and high taxes to pay for this life they have created, they live at home with his parents and get everything handed to them.
Does anyone else see something wrong with this or am i just bitching for nothing ?
Why do teens PLAN to get pregnant if they cant even accept this responability.

Staying positive

School is just a handful days away, I'm so excited. I need out of this house. Meet new people and get my self confidence back. Feel like i'm doing something with my life.

Crawling and tossing a turning.

James is now on his knees fully crawling everywhere. Trying to climb on things and going on his own adventures.
Hes getting so big, everyday we over come a new change, a new challenge.Boyfriend is back sleeping on the couch, Way to make someone feel lonely without being alone. At least i get to cuddle with James all night, even if he does take up the entire bed. I'm a proud co sleeper.
School needs to come faster.. i need to get out of this house and make some friends since all my " best friends " are MIA.

Goals.

I have lots of goals and ambitions. I've never been the patient type in my eyes life is just to short and bills add up pretty fast.. I wish to become a RN, then after a couple years i would LOVE to specialize in becoming a anesthesiologist.
I no what i have to do.

6 month shots.

Today was no better, James had his shots. I LOOOVE our family doctor. He was the one who helpped me threw my pregnancy and gave me my iud and so on and so forth.
He calls to check up on us to see how we are doing and asks if i had any questions and never rushes me , It's great. James is on the heavier side he says, but his height weighs it out so he is not concered and gave me the go ahead to start him on meats and peanut butter. Pooor litttle guy did not like his shots today.. but he didnt cry to much , he just was complaining .
Still feeling like a bird locked in a cage

James and I playing while it was snowing :)

I'd like to think that one day i will be a something.

Being a mom has to be the most draining job around, but also the most rewarding. Lately me and my " lover " have just been at war, and it breaks my heart but it's like trying to fit a circle into a smaller square. It just wont work. I cleaned the entire house i made dinner with two kids plus i  went to school and grocery shopping with no car ! So at the end of the day i really dont wanna hear it, AND of course it's still not good enough to make him happy.
I remember growing up without a dad, and maybe it was better that way, My mom must of been so lonely... But she had friends. I have a boyfriend ( baby daddy ) but no friends..
Even when hes here i still feel lonely.
I just want James to no how to love and treat woman. Verbal, mental , physical abuse has no excuse.
I wish i could treat his father the way i would want James to be loved in a serious relationship but i can't . Whats the point of just being treated like a door mat.
I hope my mom can take Mondays off..

Out of sight, out of mind.

I don't even no where to start, I wish people realized how much words stick and hurt others.

Draind.

I don't have it most difficult, but it's not the easiest. Frankly I'd rather it that way. I have these goals. I can't sit and expectt them to happen on there own. I'm enrolled in school i start after spring break, i'm doing the adult dogwood program so i should be graduated in about a year, i dont want to take any breaks, after i graduate im going to enroll into BCIT, and working my ass off to become a RN.
I no what i want, and nothing will get in my way.

It's be awhile.

I know.. i know.. it's been awhile and WOAH, its like my entire pregnancy i was climbing this mountain fighting with myself, and now its like i'm just tumbling down, taking a moment just a breather to enjoy the little things in life and prepairing myself for what god is going to throw at me next.
James, is 6 months old and is getting his shots on Wed, AHH ! Last time his father held him and i just sat there crinching my teeth because he wasn't holding him the way he should of been held or not comforting him the way he needs to be, gosh i sound like such a controlling in demand mother. Lets just say.. I'll be holding him this time.
Last night, Was James had his first big boy bath. No infant bath tub in case anyone was wondering.. he loved it. We played in it for a good 45 mins..